-knowledge

In life, you choose the path that you want to follow. You take the opportunities that are presented to you along the way to attain what you desire. Once you have reached your goals you have a number of options that you can take. You can keep striving forward to try and obtain better than what you've had. You can choose to stay where you are and remain happy with standing still. Lastly, you can choose to take all of your hard work and flush it down the drain.

Numerous politicians have fought dirty to win elections. They have given it their absolute best attempt to achieve their own five minutes of fame. Once they get there, some follow through with their duties faithfully. Others choose to have a quick bang with a hooker. Because their lives are already under immense scrutiny from the public, they can't protect themselves very well from the vicious attacks that shortly ensue being caught in the act.

In my safely knit world that I have cradled myself in for my seventeen years of existence, it appalls me to see such garbage in the media. There are many other causes that are benefiting humanity that get little recognition compared to these herpes infested morons. There are so many of these causes in fact, people can actually choose from them. It's utterly amazing, I know.

Why not, instead of taking your many painstaking hours to research scandals, research something positive instead? Just because I actually want people to take the time to see some of these causes, I'm going to list a site to varies places you can contribute and learn about these positive organizations.

Environment:

• Environment Now
  
• Habitat For Humanity
  
• Pacific Environment
  
• Campaign to Save the Environment
  
• 1000 Friends Of Florida
  
• 1000 Friends Of Oregon
  
• Access Fund
  
• Acterra
  
• Adironadack Council
  
• Alaska Conservation Foundation
  
• Alaska Marine Conservation Council
  
• Alaska Wilderness League
  
• Alliance To Save Energy
  
• Amazon Conservation Team
  
• America The Beautiful Fund
  
• American Forests
  
  World hunger:
  
• Hunger Free World
  
• World Hunger Year
  
• World Hunger Relief, Inc
  
• Stop Hunger Now
  
• Action Against Hunger
  
  Children:
  
• Teach For America
  
• America's Promise Alliance
  
• Half The Sky Foundation
  
• Global Fund For Children
  
• Communities In School
  
• Children's Scholarship Fund
  
• Save The Children
  
• The Children's Health Fund
  
  Medical:
  
• American Cancer Society
  
• Wheels For Humanity
  
• The Kitchen Medical Clinic
  
• Alliance for Aging Research
  
• AMERSA
  
• Dystonia Medical Research Foundation
  
• Ischemia Research & Education Foundation
  
• Alliance for Lupus Research
  
• IICN
  
• Endometriosis Research Center
  
• Cardiovascular Research Foundation
  
• Give Kids The World
  
• Locks Of Love
  
• The Sunshine Kids
  
• Spina Bifida Association
  
  
  Human rights:
  
• The National Organization For Women
  
• Equality Now
  
• Human & Civil Rights Organizations of America
  
• Architecture For Humanity
  
• Human Rights Watch
  
• ERASE Racism
  
• Project Change
  
• Oneness
  
• Alliance For Global Justice
  
• Alliance For Justice
  
• Astraea
  
• Gay & Lesbian Advocacates & Defenders
  
  Miscellaneous:
  
• World Hope
  
• Rainbow World Fund
  
• Amnesty International USA
  
• Be The Cause
  
• United For Peace & Justice
  
  
  
  
  
  
  More will be added later.
  

-forward

One fact will remain true until the end of time and that is that discrimination, in some aspect, will always be around. This can be seen by different religious groups, different ethnic backgrounds, and of course the struggle between man and woman. In the last decade, women have made leaps and bounds to expand the horizons for many others like themselves. It is true that some countries hold strict laws in place solely for the female gender, but others view women as equals, or at least as close to equals as we've ever come. South Korea for instance has named a female to be their first astronaut sent up into space by the country.

Of course there has been large set-backs. This would be in reference to the air-headed fools that sing about how they adore their boyfriends or about lying down and spreading their legs to reveal their herpes infested cooch. I believe that women have the power to rock the very foundations that America was built upon. I believe they can make a difference in where ever they choose to apply themselves. What is completely disgusting is how so many choose not to. They would rather live in their ignorance-filled world than to speak out about something that truly matters. It could be something simple, maybe have a conversation about global warming, perhaps post a blog about politics. Something to show the world that they aren't a waste of space.

Another set-back is the women who choose, yes choose, to become prostitutes; to sell their bodies for a piece of paper. There are the ones who will commit murder and be proud of it. What the bloody hell? Yeah, some are actually proud of their crimes. It is a very sad day when a mother cares less about her child than a worm in the dirt.

Women have the ability to make so many positive things happen in this world. It just takes a little determination to get there and once you do, you'll reap the many rewards. You can see the lives that you've impacted and the push forward out of the narrow-minded fucks who are arrogant enough to believe women are only good for being a maid to their every need.

Speak your mind, no matter the cost.

(personal)

I have experienced a number of various relationships; some similar and some completely deranged. Throughout the span of my numerous experiences, I have noticed something for awhile now and that is that I'm completely incapable of taking my own advice. That isn't saying that I'm giving poor quality advice, it just never works out the way as planned out when I apply it in my relationship. The common quality of any relationship is that it is doomed from the start to have problems. They may be minuscule in size, but they are problems all the same.

With my relationship with Zack, we have both faced growth from rather trying times. Some of the growth has been positive and some has been negative. He has lost much of his free-spirited mind while passing it on to me. He has become outrageously competitive which fits my nature beautifully. The problem is the intensity that it has gone to, which is something that neither of us will or would ever call off. Thankfully I have my beautiful sister who has been supporting my decisions through this growing competition without her really knowing so.

My moods have been getting harder and harder to control. Much of my rational and analytical thinking has gone far out the window. In some ways, this is better for our relationship and in many it is a huge step backwards. He has always been supportive of my drive to improve, but he has limited himself to living in the past. Perhaps because of his will to make my life better and not his own and perhaps because he's terrified of growing older. He will reminisce about his times of partying and doing insanely stupid behavior, yet he remains to just talk about it. Our fighting has stemmed mostly from the lack of respect that he gives when he leaves. If I ask for a phone call, he'll call once and stay out three hours later than expected. It's petty and I'm aware of that, but my mind always worries. It's a curse and a blessing in disguise. He's aware of all of this and nothing has seemed to help provoke him into calling. My patiences at the time being is very thin and breaks from the weight of a hair.

The problems always seem to resolve themselves in a couple of days with no questions asked. We both just drop the issue and move past it onto something else or even nothing at all. It's a very difficult time right now for us and neither are sure what exactly it's coming from. We have concluded that it is by far a joint effort and will probably remain that way until we can come to a solution from the frequent bickering.

Wish us luck.

-awareness?

We choose to lead our lives in the most painless way as possible. No one truly enjoys reading about gruesome crimes in the news. Most people don't pay attention from one murder to the next. What can be considered "outrageous" twenty years ago as a crime, now seems almost normal compared to the ones being committed now. People think that something that will aid the health of millions is something that they don't have to do. Maybe because they're too lazy, maybe because they don't truly care. It all comes down to being negligent.

Those who do read the news learn of precautions to take when buying typical household products. Hell, anyone who actually applies themselves to learn something would know. Yesterday it was found out that prescription drugs are in drinking water in certain places in the U.S. Some people still believe that women are incapable of violent acts. There are women on death row for murder. There are other women who are mothers who allow their child to become victimized. Using more environmental friendly products will help the Earth.

All of these things are so simple and people seem oblivious to them. It takes only a couple seconds to search any of a number of topics. Just because you would like to live a life where everything is decent doesn't mean that it's a realistic one.

-advancement?

In the world today, we're provided with incredible technology and there are improvements to it nearly every day. Not all of this technology is good, however, and is incredibly damaging to the planet. Iran is has decided to advance their nuclear program. I consider this a large step backwards for the world entirely. These weapons of mass destruction don't benefit anyone because if they are released, it will damage the entire planet in some way. China is also expanding their military, including nuclear intercontinental ballistic missiles and anti-satellite missiles. The world today seems to have become crazed with war and violence. Countries should be able to live in peace with one another without going to such extreme measures. You learn equality in school, but nothing about what has been going on in the world seems to represent it. There is hatred at every corner and acceptance is very little to be found. Radical religious groups are even displaying their violence towards what they consider "morally corrupt." People today, especially children, have very limited good influences on their lives. Even those who you would expect to at least try to be decent role models are getting shipped off to rehab and jail almost weekly.

Leaders of today set the precedence for the younger generations to come. Children are the most susceptible to learning these tendencies, even those who are sheltered. Violence is everywhere from playgrounds to the news and everywhere in between. Society is shocked and appalled with a child seriously injures or kills another living thing, but isn't that precisely what we've been teaching them?

-late addition-
Since the bombing in Times Square on Thursday, outrage has seemed to spread like rapid fire. The truth of the matter is that many of those who find this to be such a despicable act are members of Congress or law officials. Yes, this meaningless violence is a horrible display for a need of attention, but it is also a frequent act in warring countries, such as Iraq. Our soldiers face bombings every day and the media has down played it as of lately. Many brilliant people have lost their lives because of these devices and it isn't just happening in the United States. If you are going to be so outraged for this incident, show your compassion to the men and women who face this grotesque display of brutal behavior daily.

(personal)

We both come from completely different walks of life, neither one of them being remotely glamorous. When we first got into the relationship we had our doubts about the other and things were pretty bad for awhile. After we both got comfortable in our own skins around the other, things began to look up. We have experienced horrible events and beautiful ones, each one bringing us together in a strangely perfect bond. We understand how complex a relationship is and how much work it takes it keep it alive. We also understand the main problem areas in a marriage, which usually lies in children or finances. Both areas we have talked over thoroughly and have come to an agreement upon both. He has been the only person that I've been this close with and he's been the only person that I will trust with my everything.

Zack has been more patient with me than any member of my family. He has begun to understand my mood swings and what small things set off my temper. Not once has he ever complained about my temper and out ridiculously uncalled for it is at times. Instead he has tried (usually successfully) to defuse the situation. He has shone through as my guiding light when I though things were simply helpless. He's the only man that I act like a complete fool over and has been the only one that melts my heart every time he looks at me, that takes my breath away every time he talks to me.

He is the only person that I want to spend the rest of my life with. I'm completely confident in our relationship, especially in him. He's been the only person that has attempted to better every situation, even the ones that don't involve him. He is my definition of perfection in a flawed world. That view will never change. He is the most beautiful person that I have met. His heart is remarkable and his love means everything to me.

I will always love him in a very large way.